Haven't you ever felt sometimes like you don't have any supporting point neither in your family or closest friends? Like if no one takes you seriously...Well , that is what is happenning to me right now , and I feel like no one can give me anything important , and I don't intend to offend anyone of my friends or familiar , nor my boyfriend...It is just something I'd like to write so some people can read this and give me a bit of support if replying to this journal entry...

Well , sometimes I've been asking everyone if I do seem very childish with so much illusions inside of me and so many dreams that I wish to make come true one day , but it is always the same answer and I don't find this funny , it is always the same monotony in that "No , you don't seem childish" or whatever , but I do find myself stupid when talking to them about my projects or illussions , about my original characters or scenarios for my story...About any pictures I'm currently drawing or my next update in my gallery...It is like...yes , they hear me , but they do seem like "who cares , do whatever you want".

Sometimes I need a bit of support and maybe an spontaneous question like "hey , how is your latest work going on? any progress?" or maybe "how are you doing with your scripts? can I read them?" that should be nice , even if I don't ever let anyone read my scripts because when I re-read them I find them too...undone...and contentless because I just want to do so many things at a time that I disconcentrate without any reason!!...But I always think that I am the only one who has got an interest in a dream and the only one who is fighting for it , and yeah , I do realiuse that it is only you and yourself the one who can make your illussions and dreams come true , but if someone was a bit more caring about you , or if someone just wants to help you...then you feel much more comfortable and with much more strength because you have the feeling that people likes you and wants you , and cares for you not only as a friend , but as a "promise" too.

I'm not trying to intend anyone to ask me "how is your work going?" etc...No , I just want a bit of spontaneus love and care and some kind of strength to be given because I feel dismotivated and sad...And it is a big problem for an artist because this can end in an enormous and undesired block. But is it just me or that no one understands me??!!

SOMEONE HELP ME , I'M SO SAD!!!!