Crazy some'd say...nyeh...

Okeh...I feel a bit stupid when I'm right now writing about how I've been feeling the last days about this, but I really need somebody to understand me!! I mean...has this ever happened to you?...This feeling that you need to be better than somebody, you HAVE to be better than somebody...I've got it right now...

I don't know why, I've seen an artist I want to beat...And i think I can do it. But why "beat" an artist that doesn't knows who I am and neither do I about that person?. Pride, maybe?, dunno, but I need to "defeat" that person...So that is the reason why I'm using software for my newest pieces and in the one that currently I am working in.

Really, don't ask me why I am feeling this way because I don't know...Maybe it is because my muse has come back after those terribly long holidays she took away from me somwhere in Waikiki for example...*shakes muse* and I feel the terrible need of drawing and painting all the damned day, but when I saw this person's gallery I felt more than motivated to get my tablet ready, scan a new sketch, colour it with OpenCanvas and Photoshop and then blow my digital pen's nib as it was a gun...

So people please...has anyone ever felt this way???Is this wrong???Am I crazy??Do I need cookies???


..::Arashi::..